14/3/06

Ah one month has past since that...... haaa. well.

Oh today. Quiz quiz. I can't stop myself from laughing when that tutor does funny things unintentionally. Eiyo, why he so cute haaa. Ya and the quiz questions... sigh, why cannot ask direct questions? And so stupid that the company want to issue so many shares for acquisition. And make me so stupid to try and say that there is no difference in consol entries for the 2 scenarios. And I wrote a short paragraph to support my view somemore. Dumb dumb. I don't want to think that I will do well because my intuition for exams are always erroneous. And I have to scold myself and tell myself to "stop thinking so highly about yourself lah". Average student is always average student, no matter how good you think you are, you are still average (referring to myself). Even if there are times where you performed really well, things will still goes to norm (tendency to revert to norm on performance).

My performance in school? Shaped like a Bell curve. Lets see by end of this sem whether it will fit totally into the bell curve.

I have 2 days, including today to prepare for my 304 meeting, because i realized yesterday that deadline is next wed. Weekend to type the thing. Then have to prepare for presentation liao. Whats up sia. what a mess.

Hmm didn't I talked about things that resembles the Slice of life for today? hmm. When I die, what do I want to look at as success....

Slice of Life

Success is An Attitude

We talk about success as though it's an event or a thing. We refer to people wearing "the badges of success", and carrying around (or wearing or driving) the latest status symbol.

But success is not a thing; it's a way of being in the world.

You can have all the riches in the world, and still feel like a failure if you aren't following your life's true purpose. This is a special kind of stress.

Or you might have nothing but the clothes you stand in and feel like the biggest success in the world... if you are following your heart. And that is a very special kind of 'bliss'.

Day after day you may struggle through your to-do list or Objectives Project Plan, cross off most of the big items, and maybe even feel like you have had a successful day.

But are you barking up the wrong tree? A successfully completed task doesn't mean a thing if it isn't taking you nearer your true life goals by following your heart.

So what does it mean to follow the heart?

One way of looking at this is to ask yourself "Where do I get approval from? Is it from inside of me, or from others?"

"Where do I find satisfaction? Do I find it in things and other people, or in the silence I find inside myself?" These are difficult questions. It may be that you cannot even think of a time when you experienced silence within. Could it be that you are busy chasing after things that make too much noise?

There is nothing deadly serious about looking for inner silence. In fact, it leads to more fun, not less. More delight, not more depression or burn-out. And it leads to more success. Because the strength you take from inner silence restores the ability to see what is truly valuable. Friendship, love, compassion and commitment to something bigger than oneself.

Imagine yourself on your death-bed, if that isn't too depressing! What will you look back on as the successes in your life? When was the point at which you redefined success and failure, and realised that the only real yardstick is within you?

Success is not an event. Success is an attitude.