8/6/05

Fury rise. There will always be some students who are just so difficult to handle. Haha Sometimes when I get angry, I really don't know how to scold them. So I acted angry. What I did was to sit there, looking black, and kept my mouth shut. It works most of the time. When I'm really really burnt, I'll take some things to throw on the floor. It works even better. Today I did it 2 times, once in the morning, once in the afternoon, 2 different batch of people. I wonder where I got this behavior from, haha must be from someone from the SAF band. The first time, I threw a marker, the second time, a kid took a wooden rod and fool with me, so it went to the floor too.

Sometimes, I really have to act angry, but then those kids will start to tell jokes and laugh in a very contagious way. You can't endure the urge to break into laughter. Anyway, I don't think i'll be throwing things that often. Won't work if it happens everytime.

Sometimes, I really wonder if the statement-- it doesn't matter if you are good at doing something, its the passion thats important. Without passion, theres no energy. If theres no energy, theres no performance. The way I saw my collegue teach made me think of that statement. I just wonder who's lacking passion and who's lacking skill. Me?

When I reach home, i just played games until crazy. Somehow, I feel something is lacking. I guess i need to watch vcd. Watching vcd allows me to feel as though i'm travelling to another place to experience what the people in the show are experience.

Slice of Life


Don't Compare

In our daily interaction with others, we're either consciously or subconsciously sizing each other up. Judging, assessing, measuring - their looks, their demeanour, their abilities, their intelligence, how happy they are. It's a survival instinct I suppose, when knowing how competent the other players are gives you clues about how to play the game.

However, this becomes self-defeating when we begin to compare ourselves with others. When we do this, we give away a small part of our uniqueness, taking away from our own gifts and talents.

No other person has our unique qualities. No one else has ever gone through the exact same circumstances or has had the precise physical characteristics or thoughts we have.

It is when we are envious of others and what they possess that we do the greatest damage to ourselves. If we only knew what their thoughts were and what they had gone through to achieve their success it is unlikely we would want anything to do with it.

Wise persons of the ages have stated that if all people in the whole world were to dump their problems in one pile and we were to go through that pile, we would be extremely happy to settle for our own problems.
We just don't know what the other person feels until we have been in his shoes. What does he think and why does he think that way? What circumstances has he been through? What obstacles has he had to overcome to achieve whatever it is that he has achieved?

When we can truthfully answer those questions we can know how the other person feels and what has been required of him. The one thing we can know is our own thoughts and feelings, the circumstances we have allowed to bring us to our current position in life, and the choices we have made to bring us to where we are.
This allows us to honour others without comparing ourselves to them.