17/5/06

I dedicate this to someone.

Kiss Goodbye
歌手：王力宏 | 作曲：王力宏
填詞：王力宏 | 編曲：王力宏/吳慶隆

Baby不要再哭泣　這一幕多麼熟悉
緊握著妳的手彼此都捨不得分離
每一次想開口　但不如保持安靜
給我一分鐘專心好好欣賞妳的美

幸福搭配悲傷　同時在我心交叉
挫折的眼淚不能測試愛的重量
付出的愛收不回　還欠妳的我不能給
別把我心也帶走去跟隨

＊每一次和妳分開　深深地被妳打敗
　每一次放棄妳的溫柔　痛苦難以釋懷
　每一次和妳分開　每一次Kiss You Goodbye
　愛情的滋味此刻我終於最明白＊

幸福搭配悲傷　同時在我心交叉
挫折的眼淚不能測試愛的重量
付出的愛收不回　還欠妳的我不能給
我才明白愛最真實的滋味
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Today was really full of activities. I haven't said so much for a long time. Oh yes, I turned myself to chatty mode during a gathering with 2 of my great friends. Chat sky, chat sea. Haaa. Great Coffee (someone said its chocolate leh)!! Its really good to find out more about..... heee more friends. Erm, please don't say until i so good, cuz i am at times selfish and no nice to people.

When I got back home, I really want to slim down!! I went jogging!! And this time, I can fly!! Haa cuz I wore my weights out for the gathering earlier on. And I jogged 3 rounds around the neighbourhood, 50% more of my usual. At the end of it, I was "raining" heavily. When I got back at my door step, I could see.....

I saw my mum hitting the ceiling using something. I was outside. I thought "oh man, stupid neighbours from on top again". I didn't know what caught me haa but I chatted with my mum about it, in a semi assertive way. I wanted her to cool down and try to use other ways of solving problems. I somehow brought up some religious way of cooling people down eeks i thought (Yes i'm a free thinker but I gather learnings from 2 major religions in SG). It was a nice session cuz I did cool my mum down. It has been a long time since I try to solve people's emotion unbalance... since sec school? hmm haa.

I used 3 methods. 1, using rational approach by telling how bad it is to get angry, cuz we are suffering ourselves when we get angry. 2, the reverse approach by showing her that i'm more angry than her with the current situation. 3, how to turn bad situations into a positive one through reverse thinking. (I'm not a qualified psychologist, my friend is.... soon)

Oh ya, I blurt out some things to my mum also. haa. I told her I nearly got into a gang during secondary school days. I'm not as guai as i look. EVEN HER THINK THAT I EMIT A CLASSY FEELING. I tell her, I'm as normal as any kampong kid. Since secondary school days, I've always been around those ah bengs, ah lians. I'm a middle bridge between the "bad" and "good" (I bracketed it because there are no absolute bad and good, cuz bad people can be good and good people can be bad, meaning sometimes ah bengs do good things).

Although i was a prefect back then, I do mix around with ah bengs cuz i feel more comfortable with them. I talk their way, I think their way, I try to put some positive thoughts into them. (I don't walk like them though). SOmeone from a gang even asked me to join them but..... a day later he said:"I think you too guai, don't want to spoil your life" (I could remember the exact words). If I got in, I don't think i will be who i am today. Thank god.

Yes, I told my mum i could scold vulgarities as well as any ah bengs out there. I could shout as loud as anyone out there (I was the loudest ass in uniform groups during sec school days, my bandmembers couldn't stand my voice). I told her:"give me a hammer, I'll knock a hole out of the ceiling if they make somemore noise!" (reverse psychology? But I will really do it if need to). I even offered to go upstairs and talk to the noisy people. But my mum scared i do stupid things haaa. Actually I got a way of talking it out haa, too bad cannot try.

If all else fails, housing board will be the last resort. I always think that problems between 2 parties should be solved by themselves. Bringing a 3rd party in means the 2 parties sux lah, cannot talk.

I think i talk too much haaa. Ops, here is the end.

Slice of Life

Your Breath As Focus


One of the disadvantages of living in such a stimulation-rich world is our loss of focus. In an environment where we are consistently being bombarded with messages, worries, judgements, deadlines and so on, it's very easy for us to lose touch of what's truly important to us. Have we been influenced, or "brain-washed" to live lives that we don't really find fulfilling, simply because we've been told to, people expect us to, or which we've been conditioned to believe is good or right?

Are you continuing in an unrewarding, dead-end job because you think you need the money? Are you in a relationship because you can't bear being alone? Do you try to accommodate everybody's desires because you think that makes you more likeable? Do you speak, behave, dress or even think in a certain way because it presents the least amount of resistance? Do you even ask yourself what you truly want anymore?

Stuart Wilde, noted author of "The Winds of Change", tells us of what he terms 'the tribe'. We all belong to a tribe, so to speak - a group of peers that we can relate to in some way or other. We may be single, a father, Hindu, Eurasian, a sales executive, a daughter, a member of a certain church, a teacher, a politician, and so on. And each group we belong to dictates, to a certain extent, what we will think, what we will wear, where we are to live, how we make a living. It will try to keep us in a tidy little box.

Being part of the human tribe keeps us all working very hard just to make a living, while media messages keep our minds directed at purchasing. As a result, what happens to the bulk of our hard-earned savings? Yes, you guessed it. It goes into stuff we don't really need. Stuff that doesn't fulfill us on a deeper level.

One good and simple way for us to connect and grow with our inner self is through the breath. The breath is vital to your life. Breath is used to relax the body and mind, to take us to a high state of peace, to change our energy, our outlook, and thus our experiences.

Let's say that your spouse comes home after a bad day at work. You only got home not long before yourself. Your loved one does not seem so loving, and responds curtly to you. What do you do? Your day wasn't any easier. Do you jump into the tension of the situation? Or do you take a moment to breathe, re-focus your energy and create a better environment?

There is always a chance to change - to make a different choice. By consciously taking a breath and focusing on it, your mind gets a moment to refresh. By using your breath as a focusing tool, rediscover what it truly means to be you, to live and to love.