19/01/05

Ahhhhhh i was suppose to be in bed by now. When I laid on my bed, i realised that I have forgotten to type my blog, so i jumped out of bed. Was considering to skip today's blog but i realise that if i skip one, then i'll skip more. Its a chain effect.

The first thing i did in the morning was to go to see my doc. But something stranged happened. Before I took a bus from the interchange, I went to the toilet. (Girls might want to skip this paragraph, read this at your own risk) So, when you want to do small business, you can just go to the urinal right? Theres this middle age guy at about 40 plus, "migrated" from one urinal to the one beside me. I wondered what happened. He started looking at me. OMG, I was stunned there. Seeing the situation is a bit wierd, i don't know what to do. After a while of thought, guess what.... I adopted his actions and turned my head to look at him. He seemed shock. I even smiled at him!! He didn't dare to turn his head back, but still... kept trying to turn slightly towards me. Haha. Come to think of it, I've been in Central band, and I've gotten used to this kind of thing (not that these things happen inside). I keep laughing at the incident after that. Am I more sick than that guy? Anyway, I adopted the if-you-can't-beat-them-join-them mentality. What would you do if you are faced with this situation? Spray at him?

I was suppose to join a group of friends for lunch but because of the visit to my doc, I couldn't make it in time. My apologies really, especially when I found out that this friend didn't meet the other friends in the end.

So i went school after the doc visit. Its time that i start to keep myself away from embarrassing myself during class discussions. Just doesn't feel good in this kind of environment where everyone seems very hostile towards people asking "dumb" questions. Not that I ask "dumb" questions, I just tried to contribute my thinking. What an ass. Not me....

I heard something from radio today. Image is a very important thing, everywhere!! It can be used as a basis for promotions in the corporate world. Like what was said, you can have all the qualifications you have during young age, but when you reach the middle age, everyone's qualification is the same. What makes you different would be from the way you carry yourself. It would be form over substance then. Also said in the radio, girls have much more advantage because they can do many things to "decorate" themselves. For guys, only shoe, pants, belt, shirt, and hair.

They then concentrated alot on hairstyle. They talked about the different kind of hairstyle, and gave different terms for it. They have also liked the hairstyles to the type of work suitable for them. During work time, your boss might look at your image and determine whether you can handle big things or not. Of course image alone cannot be a determining factor, they would ask questions or look at your performance to confirm their thinking, which has already derived from your image.

I guess what was reported coincides with what my proposition was about looks being very important in guys. When girls say that they don't consider looks as one of the big factors, they would still assess guys unknowingly. I don't deny that the norm for guys are to assess girls on looks as well, but the point is that, don't just say that guys always look at looks, girls do too. Then how? Guys like me would be very very sad haha.

Slice of Life

"A Thousand Marbles

As we go about our daily activities of going to work, rushing through meals, fetching the kids from school, attending meetings, buying the groceries and so on, death is probably the furthest thought from our minds.

Isn't it strange that we spend so little, if any, of our waking hours contemplating the one thing that can prevent us from ever waking up again?

Human beings are specialists at taking things for granted. For many of us, the miracle of waking up at the start of each day is often rendered mundane, even distressing, by the thought of having to drag our sleepyheads to work.

But will we still allow the marvel of each drawn breath to elude us if we were conscious of the fact that our next breath could be the last?

If there's one thing that diminishes as surely as the waning rays of the evening sun, it's our time left on earth. It is a consistent and perpetual contraction that has no hope of replenishment.

Aside from work, how are we using the time given to us? How much value do we try to gain from it? How much of the little time we have left do we devote to the happiness of our loved ones? Because as surely as our days are numbered, so are theirs.

A man once figured out that given his age and the average life span of a human being, he had only about a thousand Saturdays left. So he decided to fill up a clear plastic container with a thousand marbles to represent his remaining weekends. Every Saturday, he would take out one marble and throw it away.

This gave him a tangible visual representation of the amount of leisure time he had left to devote to his loved ones and family. It was a great reminder to live and love to the fullest with what little time he had left.

When he had emptied the container of marbles, he figured that if he made it to the following weekend, he would have been given a little extra time. Now, we could all use a little extra time.

And we will feel all the more keenly the significance of how we use that time because it's a bonus. We didn't deserve it. We didn't work for it. We couldn't have done anything to get it if it didn't happen. But it did. And therefore, we have to spend it meaningfully, intentionally, lovingly and magnificently.

How many marbles have you got left? "

My marbles... I don't know.... haha being too pest.