7/01/06

I pushed myself so hard, so hard, and I finished my planned work in 4 hrs instead of the planned 8 hrs. I'm so happy that I can enjoy tomorrow without any thoughts on any work.

The rain came so heavily. It just smashed onto me. I got so drenched even though I had umbrella. Its a retribution. Who ask me to laugh at my friend. On my journey to band prac.... I was frozen inside the bus. I was holding on to my bag and I don't feel like moving. My eyes were staring at one spot, with no thoughts in the mind. Feel like sleeping, feel like dying. Frozen. The whole world is so cold, so cold. My inner clock seemed to have frozen at that point, and felt that the world is just so cold. Its going to be cold. Even colder when school begins.

I don't want to be bothered by other people. I don't want to be bothered by how happy they are. I don't want to be bothered by how successful they are. I don't want to be bothered by how popular they are. I don't want to be bothered by how much they can earn. I don't want to be bothered by how good their results are. I don't want to care.

I sound like a real loser haaa. But as long as I happy, who cares right? At the end of the day, life ends and all achievements will disappear, all disputes ends, all relationships stop. When we look back, the things that stay are:"what impact have you created for the society", "what impact have you created for the world", "whose life have you changed", "what history are you leaving behind for others".

In conclusion, always act for others for those are the things that stays even after you life. Things that are for yourself will disappear when life ends. Think of the world, act for the world.

(Damn, how come i talk this kind of things?)