26/11/04

An empty day. Only to carve in my memories the images of teaching music. Come to think of it, I'm quite bad in teaching beginners. I'm a brass player but was asked to teach a saxophonist. Faint, and its a really playful one. Talk about forbia for kids... haha. Well, in the morning was one school, then took a cab to go to another school in the afternoon.

After all those teaching, I was suppose to go for a movie with a friend, but he was asked to work overtime till the night, so the movie was off. Wanted to watch it myself but... felt so tired after all those teaching. So i stayed at home and took a nap. It was dinner when I woke up. Played games, and watched tv. Hmm empty hehe.

Slice of Life

"Free Yourself From Attachment

One of the biggest traps in life is to desire something so much that you become inextricably attached to it. This object of desire can be a person, or thing, an outcome or any sort of pleasurable feeling or validation. Your need to possess it is so strong that your emotional well-being suffers when you don't have it.

What happens when you're waiting for it? You're anxious, stressed, obsessed. What happens if you don't get it? You're miserable. What happens when you get it and then lose it? You're miserable!

Some people cannot find inner peace unless they "have" whatever it is they are attached to, and some people even feel the compulsion to pursue whatever they need no matter what they have to do, or who they have to hurt. Some even end up taking their own lives because they cannot imagine life without that person or thing.
The only cure for this kind of desirous attachment is to understand the nature of desire. What happens when you finally possess that person or thing? You quickly lose interest and begin to desire someone or something else, right? It's an endless cycle. Why do we routinely subject ourselves to so much anxiety and stress for a little fleeting happiness? We can only find lasting peace from the INSIDE-OUT, not from the OUTSIDE-IN. If we can understand this, we can avoid a lot of pain.

The only way to free yourself from the emotional and mental suffering is to release all desirous attachment. Then you can go about your business, take care of what you wish to, be with whomever you enjoy being with, and know that your entire life and reality does not depend on any one person, place or thing. All things are equal in the sense that the pain or joy that they can give you is purely relative. It all depends on your point of view, and your willingness to appreciate. This prevents us from placing any one person or thing on a pedestal.
Once you've achieved this, you'll be able to drastically reduce anxiety, fear, pain and suffering. It is not what is outside of you that will bring you joy - it is your being free of desirous attachment that will enable you to live with far more inner peace, calm, serenity, and the joy you deserve."'

Thats the end today.